I still remember the day when the reality of God’s love finally sank into me. I changed that day. I was on a bus on the way home. The ride was extra long because I missed the other bus. During that long ride, God spoke to me about His love. I just suddenly understood. It was as if liquid healing flooded my heart. I felt myself accept the fullness of His compassion for me. I realized that no matter what, God would always love me. I could not do anything to make Him stop. That day, I let His love drown out every fear and every doubt. I let Him hold me completely. God’s love can heal what nothing else can. God is so personal with me. He knows me yesterday. He knows me today. He knows what I’m thinking and why I’m thinking it. There was a lot of pain and abuse that led me to be the way I was when God found me, but would you believe that I now thank God for that pain? I thank Him for those struggles because now I know Him. Not only that, I have a testimony. I constantly think about who I used to be and who I am today. I still need a lot of work, but I’ve come further than I thought I could. It took God about 7 years to get me to the point where I could say that I was sane and emotionally healthy. During that journey to wholeness, I really came to know God. I learned that He can be trusted. He loves unconditionally. Thank God, He’s not through though. I believe the best is yet to come. I have a destiny in Him that He decided before the world was.

Dear Jesus,

Thank You for loving me the way You do. There is nothing better than You. You are the reason that I live. I can’t live one moment without You and I don’t want to try.

Amen